The Reality of Relapse

[MajestyJo]

BUILDING A NEW LIFE

CREATE IN ME A CLEAN HEART

"Create in me a clean heart, 0 God; and renew a right spirit within me." Ps.51:10

O Father, creator of all Life, Truth, and Beauty, To feel separated from you is death, darkness and despair.
Create in me a clean heart and renew a right spirit within me.

Let Thy Light shine through my darkness.

I am through with selfish seeking for the loaves and fishes.

I am through with endless looking over my shoulder for signs following.

It is enough to seek Thee only. It is all that is important to me.

Thy Light is the answer to all of my problems.
Thy Truth is my healing.

I am opening my heart to receive Thy Love.
Let it cast out: my selfish aspirations for human recognition, my own self-manufactured goodness full of pride, my criticisms, condemnations, and my judgments, my resistances, resentments and my minor irritations.

I would be a clear channel for Thy Light, a better instrument for Christ.

I ask to live as a son of God and glorify Thee, Father.

And so it is.

Love and God Bless

It was so difficult for me when my son went into rehab 5 times, and made the decision to continue using. He says in today, `He will never go back to meetings.` It is his decision, he must walk his own path, and all I can do is pray for him.

As the slogan says, `Live and let live.` I need to live my life and allow Him to live his.

A loss and a change in my life, can bring about grief. I need to allow myself to work through it.