difficulty and joy

[pbsandms]

When I finally surrendered, I was grateful for guidance. My sponsor took my hand and walked with me from despair to hope. I was asked to drop to my knees when I woke and again before sleep and give thanks for the good and the bad and each new day that I remained sober.

Each time God placed me in situations and with people that I found difficult I would drop to my knees and thank God. Oh yes, I would go into the restroom and on my knees say thank you God. This practice gave me pause before acting on my feelings, getting my thoughts out of my head while learning to rely upon a higher power.

It was out of this daily gratitude that I fully connected with God accepting his will in my life as well as his strength to carry me.

I am grateful to God for life's difficulties and joy. I am grateful for AA, sponsorship, fellowship, and this practice of daily surrender.