The admission that we are somehow different from other people never comes easy. But it is only by admitting what is, that we are ever able to have a chance to recover. For without being able doing this means it's over for us. This is not a place any of us like to be, but we will all eventually find ourselves there. When I did I was sure I was never going to admit it, there was no way I'd ever do that. I did sense however that I was at risk and in danger of admitting it and I feared that I might be compelled to do so. This was because I really wanted to admit it but couldn't because of all I feared it would mean. It was after I met someone in recovery who had admitted it that I was able to finally admit it myself. It felt good when this happened and I sensed I was on my way to recovery.