We all stopped loving that's part of having this illness. It began with me when I started to say I didn't care any more. Then I ended up hating everything about this world including myself. It is from doing battle with this vicious disease we become unloving. I knew this was happening to me, those close to me could see it happening to me. I was unable to stop this, nor would I on my own ever be able to stop it from happening to me. Recovery is all about being able to love again. It's not easy to learn to how to love again, but it's well worth it because it is by being able to love this world and everything in it again, including myself that I was spared from losing that battle with this disease. What a beautiful gift that is. Thank you.