Welcome Ricky, so glad you sign in to say hello. Please keep coming, don't look at forever, this is a one day at a time program. This is a one day at a time program, if you fall, pick yourself up and try again.
I went to meetings, meetings, and more meetings. First things first, was my recovery. I got a home group and a sponsor. Without me, I had nothing. It is a process, not a quick fix, so please keep coming back.