Welcome Mardee, thank you for signing in and saying hello. We have all been there, hope you will find something on the site that is a blessing, an enlightenment, and a new awareness.
It is one day at a time, stay in today, don't drag in the past or project into the future. Things will come up, but we deal with them one day at a time, don't look at the whole picture, ask yourself "What is imporant? For me, my sobriety." "What is a priority? First things first, my recovery, because without me I have nothing, and my friends and family don't have me either.
Do you belong to a Fellowship for alcohol and addiction and/or other addictions like food, sex, gambling, work/busy, computer, codependency, a family member of someone who is an addict. There is something here for everyone. When you read a post, substitute your drug of choice in the place of what is printed, be it attention, anxiety, depression, etc.
As the saying goes, this too shall pass.