Why do we sabotage ourselves?
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When I first saw this I didn't know want to think and the thought stuck with me. Not too sure I am any wiser as to what to say in response to it. I think it described my life to a T! If it didn't fit or work, I bent or broke the rules so things did fit and they went according to JoAnne. I think it is self-justification and rationalizaiton. As a result of justifying the wrong, I had a lot of guilt. I didn't want to take on the same, so I rebelled and played the blame game. A lot of what I did, at 7 years sober, was not the kind of thing a lot of people do. I was very much into doing the Steps spiritually and mentally. Looking at how my thinking got me into so much trouble and how I would try to talk my way out of everything. I once said to my boss, after he said to me, "I finally got you, you weren't wrong, but you were only half right." I couldn't give him the victory. I told him that he misunderstood me, and that I had told him the right thing, only I worded it differently. I was not a very nice person. I can still go there when I get angry, it is one of the old patterns that I had to break. I was only hurting myself. It is good when we can go to our God and ask for forgiveness and start a new day. There are some days, that are best not talked about! There have been days were the only thing positive about them were the fact that I didn't pick up a drink or a drug. It isn't something I do so much in today, it was something I found myself doing when I came into recovery and had to break the pattern and turned over to my Higher Power. I found that I couldn't stand success and more than I could failure, so in a lot of ways, I prevented myself from moving forward in my life. I started out as a file clerk and ended up as an office manager. That is what my boss called me, I saw myself more as a Girl Friday. The truth was, I was trying to do the work of three people, and ended up using my pills because I couldn't accomplish what I 'thought' I should be doing. http://angelwinks.net/images/humorpod/humorpod38.gif |
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